Race for the Cure

As many of you know “07″ wasn’t very kind to our family. If I could I would erase it from history and pretend the whole year just didn’t happen. Since that is not possible we are just moving on and making the most of a new year.

Among many horrible events of “07″ there is one that sticks out the most. For the first time in my life I got an up close look at cancer and what an ugly horrible disease cancer is. I very unexpectedly lost my biological father to cancer. This came just weeks after my mother-in-law found out she had breast cancer.

Loosing my dad was a huge shock, I didn’t even know he was sick. I just got a phone call one day that he had died. I missed the chance to say goodbye, and maybe resolve old issues.

The loss of my dad also made my mother-in-laws cancer uncomfortably real. I don’t deal well with things I can’t fix so I threw myself into caring for her the best way I knew how. I cooked, I cleaned, I ran errands, I took her to her appointments, and I prayed a lot.

I watched as cancer took everything from her, first her hair and slowly it robbed her of her ability to even get out of bed. Through it all she was a tower of strength and dignity. She was worried about how her kids and grand kids would react to her bald head. It didn’t bother us any, and she slowly started going without a wig more and more. We laughed and joked with her about the situation and she helped get all of us through it. My hubby even suggested she dress up like Uncle Fester from the Adams Family for Halloween.

After 9 long months she beat it. She worked really hard at getting her strength back, and is now in London with my father in law on a church mission. I’m sure she would say that all she went through was worth it to be where she is now. We are truly blessed to still have her with us, and to have her healthy enough to serve the way she is.

This year in honor of my wonderful mother-in-law and all the other brave women battling this ugly disease our family will be running in the Susan G. Komen breast cancer race in Salt Lake city. The race will be on May 10th at the Gateway mall. If you want to join the fun you can register here online.

I am in no way ready to run a 5k, yes I am that out of shape. I am setting my standards very low. My goal is to finish the race. I think that one I can manage. I will be running with my sister-in-law, my 13 year old daughter, and many friends who are joining the cause. I hope to never have to deal with cancer again although I know this is very unlikely.

It must be spring

It seems that all the blogosphere talk has shifted towards babies. Everywhere I turn people are talking about having a baby, being pregnant, or considering becoming pregnant. I think it’s great. I love hearing about everyone’s families.

I have a few friends who have recently announced they are expecting and I couldn’t be happier for them. I must admit I’m feeling a little left out. It is a strange feeling being 31 and having your youngest and last baby turn 5. Part of me says I’m to old to have anymore, and part of me can’t believe that I’m done. At this point the idea of starting all over is to overwhelming to think about, but the idea of the next baby in the family being my grandchild is even scarier. My daughter turned 13 this year and it seems like life is flying by way to fast. If she follows our families pattern I could be a grandmother in about 6 more years. How scary is that?

The idea that my youngest will be in kindergarten next year, and I could choose to do something for myself like go back to school is a wonderful thought. I am feeling free to pursue things I’ve always wanted to do, but is this a selfish thing? The idea of him being in kindergarten also scares me. I have wanted to be a mother for as long as I remember. My job has always been to take care of my little ones and now I feel like that is coming to an end. If I’m not just my kids mom anymore then who am I? Dad’s have it easier because they also have there career as part of there identity. I’ve been a wife and mother only, and wonder what else am I?

This may seem like a pity party, but it’s not. I really am enjoying the idea of having options for my future. I just don’t know what I want more, freedom in my day, or more babies to cuddle.

So tell me how did you know if you were done or if there were more babies meant for you?

 

Disappointed

I have to admit that I am totally an Oprah fan. I don’t watch her show very often, because I just don’t watch that much TV, but I love her for what she tries to do. I really feel she tries the best way she knows how to help people. I admire the fact that she doesn’t just throw money at people and assume that money will fix their problems. She tries to educate people and show them how to change their own life’s and I love that.

When I heard about her new show “The Big Give“, I had to give up my ban on TV and watch. I was hooked from the first moment. The idea that you can turn charity into a amazingly fun show to watch was really intriguing. I have faithfully watched it since it’s first episode and continue to love it.

Yesterday I got a phone call from my sister who works for a granite counter company. She was calling to tell me that they had been contacted by Oprah’s people to do granite counter tops on a Big Give episode that will be filmed here in Salt Lake City. The whole thing is fake! They set up ahead of time those who will donate. The contestants are given the people to contact who have already agreed to donate.

I am totally disappointed about this. I still think that the idea for the show is great, but it will be hard to watch when I know that all those phone calls they are making begging for people to help someones dream come true are totally fake.

Oprah came down hard on an author who “exaggerated” his life story in a book that she loved, isn’t this the same thing?

I feel like a kid who just found out there is no Santa Claus. What do you think? Have you ever really been let down by someone you admired?

 

The VERY best April Fools ever!

OK I know I already posted once today, but I couldn’t pass this up. CNN posted a story on April Fools daythat claimed Snoop Dogg became a Mormon. I will admit I’m a Snoop Dogg fan (don’t judge me), but Snoop as a Mormon, now that’s funny! The CNN link doesn’t seem to be going through, so here is the story for your reading pleasure. Enjoy.

DIAMOND BAR, California (AP) — In what some may consider an unexpected move, rap artist “Snoop Dogg” has reportedly converted to Mormonism after nearly a year of study with the fast-growing, Utah-based faith.

Snoop Dogg says he “can’t get enough of the Book of Mormon.”

In a statement, a spokeswoman for Snoop Dogg — whose real name is Calvin Broadus — said he considers himself extremely fortunate to have discovered such a deep sense of spiritual fulfillment at this stage in his life.

“Mr. Broadus is also very pleased to find that his family is as enthusiastic about attending church services as he is,” the spokeswoman said.

However, Snoop Dogg has not been enthusiastic about publicly sharing his experience and declined to be interviewed by CNN for this article. In fact, he reportedly informed producers of his E! reality show “Snoop Dogg’s Father Hood” that this particular aspect of his family’s life was off-limits to the cameras. Still, he left open the possibility of addressing the subject in future episodes.

According to the Associated Press, Snoop Dogg was first introduced to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, as the Mormon Church is officially known, after attending a Gladys Knight concert in an LDS meeting house in Los Angeles.

Knight, who very publicly discusses her conversion to Mormonism several years ago, invited Snoop Dogg to what is known to the Mormon faithful as “Family Home Evening,” a church program that encourages families to set aside Monday evenings for gospel-centered lessons and family togetherness.

Though Snoop Dogg has been hesitant to publicly discuss his recent spiritual journey, he commented on the experience of attending his first “Family Home Evening” in a recent interview with People Magazine.

“I was hooked from the start,” Snoop Dogg said. “We talked about the purpose of life, played Mousetrap, and ate brownies. The kids thought it was off the hook, for real.”

In what Snoop Dogg now thinks was anything but a coincidence, Mormon missionaries had knocked on his door just one week before the Knight concert. He said he had initially turned them away because of what he knew about the strict Mormon health code, which prohibits members from smoking, drinking alcohol, and using drugs.

“Y’all know me,” he said grinning broadly. “There were just certain things the old me — the “natural man” — needed to do. And these young guys are telling me that God’s not down with disrespecting ourselves. But it’s cool now.”

Snoop Dogg said his conversion marks the end of his old life, one that included frequent run-ins with the law. Snoop Dogg was convicted in 1990 of cocaine possession and charged with gun possession after a 1993 traffic stop. In 1997, he pleaded guilty in exchange for a lighter sentence.

In 1996, Snoop Dogg was acquitted of murder after a purported gangbanger was killed by gunfire from the vehicle in which Snoop Dogg was traveling.

Snoop Dogg dismisses critics who claim his conversion is intended to placate a Salt Lake County judge, before whom he is appealing an alleged probation violation.

“Listen, the haters will say what they will,” Snoop Dogg said. “I can only do what I feel is right.”

I’m Back, I know you missed me, right?

Mmmmkay well, I’m back, an no I didn’t fall off the face of the earth (although that did sound like a good option). Life just got busy, so I checked out for a while.

I had fun catching up on everyone else’s blogs and reading a few books that I have been trying to get to and I’m now ready to join the rest of the world again.

I woke up this morning to beautiful blue skies (still to chilly for my liking) and I’m hopeful that this will be a new trend. Winter is killing me!

Hubby and I still need to get over to the old house and finish cleaning it out to get it ready to rent. This requires a run to the dump, but seriously it is FREEZING outside. The last thing I want to do is haul junk out to a trailer in the wind and snow. So my choice is procrastination, and so far it is working for me.

Tomorrow is suppose to be even better weather, so I’m running out of excuses.

A few weeks ago while packing boxes hubby leaned over and said “how about leaving all this and running off the Vegas for the weekend.” , and that’s what we did. We went and stayed at MGM, ate yummy food, did a lot of shopping, and went to see “O”. We left the kids home with my sister, and it was so worth it.

It was fun, and much needed. I came home feeling ready to get back to work on the house, but then the weather started to really suck so that didn’t happen.

So tell me what do you do to get through a never ending winter?

 

Moving, Not Fun!

I have been MIA for a while due to a horrible move (more on that later). I have been without Internet for a week, and to stressed to share whats been going on.

Thank you to Dev for tagging me and giving me something to blog about.

HOW OLD IS ASH: 32! (nine months older to the day)
WHO EATS MORE: Ash (I’m dieting)
WHO SAID “I LOVE YOU’ FIRST: hmmm. that was so long ago… I don’t remember.
WHO IS TALLER: Ash is at least a whole head taller.
WHO SINGS BETTER: Ash hands down, No question. I think I’m probably tone deaf.
WHO IS SMARTER: Ash, but I’m pretty street smart.
WHO DOES THE LAUNDRY: ME
WHO DOES THE DISHES: Me
WHO SLEEPS ON THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE BED: Ash, I sleep on the side closer to the kids.
WHO PAYS THE BILLS: Ash does, but I used to. We seem to take turns every few years.
WHO MOWS THE LAWN: The lawn people, but Ash did before we lived in a neighborhood that did it for you.
WHO COOKS DINNER: that would be me.
WHO IS MORE STUBBORN: I would say Ash, but I’m sure he would say me.
WHO KISSED WHO FIRST: He would say that I did on the first date.
WHO ASKED WHO OUT FIRST: We met on a blind date, but then he asked me out the next week (and the rest is history).
WHO PROPOSED: Once again, he would say I did, but that is not how I remember it.
WHO IS MORE SENSITIVE: I’m not sure, I guess it depends on what topic.
WHO HAS MORE FRIENDS: we really have the same friends…
WHO HAS MORE SIBLIINGS: Ash is one of five.
WHO WEARS THE PANTS: I do all though I like to let him think he does ;0)
WHO ARE YOU TAGGING: I don’t want anyone to feel left out, so whoever wants to play.

Check out my post at Fight the Fluffy and find out what is your Happy Weight.

I AM A WINNER!

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I never win ANYTHING. I just don’t have that great of luck, but today I won.

I entered a raffle for a Valentine’s gift basket that my friends MOPS group was giving away. I figured it was a charitable contribution, because there was no way I was going to win. I never win anything.

Yesterday I got a phone call that she needed to come drop my prize off, and I couldn’t believe it. Winning is fun!

The basket included:

  • Sparkling cider
  • 2 wine glasses (purple, very pretty)
  • Red Robin gift card
  • Color Me Mine gift card
  • Pecan scented candle
  • Rocky Mountain Chocolate gift basket (there was a gift basket inside the gift basket)
  • Certificate for free babysitting
  • Movie passes
  • Dale and Thomas popcorn
  • 4 marriage books
  • A Kama Sutra bath set

In Honor of Valentines Day…

The stupidest Mormon pick up line EVER.

Guy: “Is your name virtue.”

Girl: “No, why?”

Guy: “because you garnish my thoughts unceasingly.” (D&C 121:45)

Seriously. Are you kidding me? I couldn’t believe this actually came out of the mouth of a boy my daughters age. Some kid said this to one of her friends. In all fairness he is only in the 7th grade, but give me a break!

So tell me, what is the stupidest pickup line you’ve heard?

I’m Giving It Up

I have pretty great parents. I grew up in a very socially and ethnically diverse area. I feel it made me a pretty understanding and tolerant person.

As a kid I was aloud to try many religions, and have learned some amazing life lessons from all the wonderful religions I had the opportunity to visit. I loved how the Southern Baptists celebrated there faith with music and dance. While visiting you could really feel there faith. They also had a awesome summer Bible camp that I attended every summer (until they found out I was Mormon, and asked me to never come back)

As a kid I remember the Jehovah Witnesses as being the funnest church, did you know that a lot of there buildings have cafeteria’s with ice cream machines ( I think it’s their equivalent of a Stake center). During intermission my friend and I helped ourselves to huge cones and I couldn’t help but think they were way cooler than our church.Â

As a teen I went to a Methodist sleep in, totally fun. It’s like a huge slumber party only better.

I enjoyed the solemn rituals of the Catholic church, (the Catholic church was by far the dominate religion in our area) and learned from the Muslim’s to always research what you believe, and not just take everyone else’s word for it. Gain your own testimony not just have one handed to you.

The lesson’s I’ve learned have served me well in my life, but our religion has always been where my heart belongs. All the other church’s had a lot to offer, but I always came back to what I knew to be true. I have always been grateful to my parents for giving me the opportunity to find out for myself.

I want this for my kids, but find it difficult to show them diversity while living in Utah. Don’t get me wrong I love living here, I just realize I have to work a little harder to teach my kids that not everyone thinks the way we do and that it’s ok.

This year I have decided to join the Lent band wagon. I am not Catholic, but as a Mormon I know a little something about self deprivation. So this year in honor of Lent (and my diet) I will be giving up soda. I know it doesn’t sound like much, but for me it is A LOT.

In honor of our dear late prophet I will also be reading the Book of Mormon in 97 days for the 97 years of his life.

So tell me are you giving something up for Lent? If not do you have any special goals or New Years resolutions?

Garden Swap

I have never participated in a swap before, and I’m very excited to give it a try. I found a post here about a garden swap and thought that it sounded like fun so I signed up. You can go here if you would like to join in the fun.

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Praise To The Man

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1910-2008

He would say “what is all the fuss about?” but we miss him deeply and honor him.

 

TV is Sucking the Life Out of Me

I am not a TV watcher (I know that is weird). I used to be, back in the day I was a full blown addict but I gave it up.

When we moved to Utah, I just decided to not hook up cable, and it has been wonderful. We only own one TV and it’s 27 inches (I know I know really weird). I spend very few hours a week watching TV, and can’t say that there is even one show that I am hooked on. I probably couldn’t even tell you what night of the week any given show is on.

Life this way has been wonderful, until my sister brought over her unused cable box that she pays for and hooked it up to my TV. Long story short she has two boxes, but now only has one TV. Since she just moved in next door she decided to let us test drive the second box just in case we decide we want cable.

I now find myself compelled to sit in front of the TV and “catch up” on all the shows I used to watch. The truth is I really didn’t miss them so why am I so compelled to watch now? The shows I find myself really enjoying are the ones where they buy a house and fix it up and resell them. I’m totally hooked.

Another great question is why is it when you have like, I don’t know, 500 channels there still is nothing on? I can spend 30 minutes just flipping through them all trying to find something to watch.

Now with my newly rejuvenated obsession with TV I have totally neglected my blog, my Google reader, my work, and of course there is that pile of clean laundry just screaming to be folded. I guess I’ll have to just ask Sadie to fold it because my show is on.

Go over and check out my post at Fight the Fluffy, and help me figure out my numbers problem.

Snow Day Extremes

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Growing up in Seattle we didn’t see a whole lot of snow. Rain yes, but snow no. When it did snow, it was a big mushy mess, and everything shut down. We could get less than 1/2 an inch of snow and the whole city would come to a grinding halt. No stores open, no work, but most of all no school.

The city was just not equipped with snow removal gear or at least not enough. Since it only snowed once or maybe twice a year, I guess they didn’t think it was worth it to buy a bunch of plows.

Of course we didn’t mind, we loved snow days. We would brake into the golf course and slide down the hills.

When we moved to Idaho we had lots and LOTS of snow. The first week we were there it snowed about a foot and a half. I waited for the announcement that school would be closed and planned on a fun day with snow forts, sledding and hot coco. The announcement never came, Idaho schools don’t close because of snow. I couldn’t believe it how did they function with all this snow.

In all the years we lived in Idaho they only closed school once, and that was not because of snow. It was because the heater went out in the building and it was about 5 degrees outside. That brings me to another fun fact about Idaho, if it is above 0 then the kids have to go out for recess. They are only aloud to stay in if the temperature dips into the negative range. How crazy is that?

This morning we woke up to a winter wonderland outside, and I couldn’t’ get off our hill to get the kids to school. A very nice neighbor put chains on his car and drove them to school late.

Being new to Utah, I’m just wondering what is Utah’s policy on snow days, and what are your favorite snow day memories?

On a side note, I got a phone call from my mom last night. She called to tell me that the girl in Lehi who was killed by her husband at church was my childhood friend Christy from Seattle. I hadn’t put it together since I haven’t seen her since we were little and her last name is different. I’m still processing this, I’m sure I’ll write more about it later. Until then please pray for her family.

Our “Sugar Bear”

(Disclaimer: Ash uses the word sexy A LOT. He says things like “look at that car, that’s sexy” and “our new TV is sexy”, things like that.)

Cole:Â “Mom what does sexy mean?”

Me: ” Um, sexy is when something looks really good.”

Cole: “Oh, ok I’m going to go put on my sexy socks.”

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Happy 5th Birthday Sugar Bear!

Fight the Fluffy

I just did my very first ever guest post over at Fight the Fluffy. (who am I kidding, it isn’t really a guest post if you ask to join ;0) Go check it out.